Can't Sleep..Weird Mood...Stir Crazy @ 4 in the morning..

I dunno...I don't feel like doing anything. I don't feel like watching tv, reading, or playing any games. I feel like just sitting here staring at the wall...or going for a walk or something. Well, I partially blame it on the big ice cap I drank.. couldn't help it. I've been craving them a lot lately..actually anything like a slushy or icy i've been craving..mmm snow cones...



Now I know why the doctors tell you to stay away from caffeine...the baby goes nuts. It's like he's training to be in the UFC or something and using my organs as opponents..I hope he doesn't show interest of being in the UFC.. every fight they will have to police escort me out for pouncing on the opponent like a jaguar.



I'm getting so damn fat. Jay loves it, especially now that I have a bubble butt. I can't stand it. Especially my thighs rubbing together (that has always been my "am I fat ?" test, if they rub together, I need to lose weight). I blame it on that stupid diet the Dr put me on where I had to eat every 2-3 hours because after my hyperemesis, I was underweight and the baby was very underweight. Now he is fine, but I am a fatass.. Well, I guess I should listen to what they say that a having healthy baby is better than any superficial thing.



Here are my measurements to date:



Bust: 44.5

Waist: 40

Hips: 43



And my weight is slowly creeping up to 190. I was 140 before baby..I still can't believe that I gained so much. I feel like a blowfish.. Everything is puffy and poofed out. I feel like a balloon that someone needs to pop. OMG I am so going to make an inappropriate joke about that if they induce me and "poke me in the cooch with a stick" as I like to put it. Hey, at least I am a fun patient. When we went for our registration appointment the nurse told us that she even had fun and we all sat there just chatting so much even though she had a roomful of people waiting lol.



My ribcage hurts so much. It feels like hmmm.. ok, you know when you breathe in and hold it for a long time ? It kinda feels like that. I feel like going for a swim. It's supposed to be good for you because of the whole weightlessness thing, but I still ain't doing it. Not unless they will allow me to wear a full wetsuit lol. Squash me all in there like a polish sausage hehe.



Underwater shit scares the crap out of me. Especially because there is such a mystery about what the heck is actually down there. I was watching this program on this gigantor squid one night and I was like no thank you..Jaws much ? I dunno, I've never really loved the ocean after I got stung by a school of catfish as a child...



I watched this Halloween movie and I was so confused. It's like "omg people got murdered in my house ?, lets have sex". I would love to see a ghetto scary movie. Not ones with all these dumb suburbanites that decide to have sex when things get scary. One thing that confused me too, was who was the father of Jamie whatever's baby ? I hope it wasn't a little incest baby...



Frig... I'm so bored...