Just think about it. If they really cared about pollution and everything, they would do so many things like :
1.Make busses free !!
2.Force fast food companies to comply with recycling rules and use Biodegradable wrappers etc. Not only that, but they would make it mandatory for every order that is "for here" to be served on dishes and not in wrappers and boxes.
3. Make cloth diapers cheaper and more available. Or at least carry things like Gdiapers along with the pampers and stuff. It is such a hassle for the average bean unless you have heaps of money to spend at the one off. I would love to use cloth diapers for Kaius, but the initial cost is so much, especially with the other costs of having a child and being on maternity leave.
4.Have better parks and plant more trees !!!
It seems everywhere we go nowadays,we are bombarded with being "green" and environmentally friendly.LOL, I think my neighbours used to probably think I was on crack for cleaning my windows with newpaper.I don't think anything will really change if things stay the way they are. Those that are environmentally conscious are usually labelled hippies or people who "have no life". But it is human nature I guess.Humans can be such selfish bastards.
I know so many of you have been bugging me for updates of Kaius and more pictures etc (yes cuz,I will get some pics of his teeth). I have many new blog entries,but I have been mostly saving them instead of posting them..ooops.. I have many of his new pictures up on my facebook. I am trying to figure out a good picture hosting site (because my facebook account is set on private and I don't really want to change that setting). And since there are so many pictures that I have I would like to put them on a slideshow or something. When I figure it out I will post it. Plus, I am still trying to unpack everything in the new place..Uggh.. Hope everyone is well. ~
My show begins tonight !!! I am so excited ! Last season left me hanging ! One of my favourite characters is Lafayette and I really hope that he isn't dead ! If you haven't heard of True Blood people, I suggest you watch it. It is soo much better than Twilight,especially if you are an adult and not some 17 year old chasing after Edward Cullen. Ughh, my whole day is now going to be waiting in anticipation !!
She's been uprooted from her small hometown and enrolled at Evernight Academy, an eerie Gothic boarding school where the students are somehow too perfect: smart, sleek, and almost predatory. Bianca knows she doesn't fit in.
Then she meets Lucas. He's not the "Evernight type" either, and he likes it that way. Lucas ignores the rules, stands up to the snobs, and warns Bianca to be careful-even when it comes to caring about him.
"I couldn't stand it if they took it out on you," he tells Bianca, "and eventually they would." But the connection between Bianca and Lucas can't be denied. Bianca will risk anything to be with Lucas, but dark secrets are fated to tear them apart . . . and to make Bianca question everything she's ever believed."
I've only just started reading this book, but I can already see some similarities between it and Twilight. The first one was the whole Science class thing (the only class they share together etc. with Twilight I think it was Biology,and with Evernight,I think it is Chemistry). I do like the characters. Lucas Ross is kind of similar to Edward Cullen,but not really. And even though it is early on, my guess is that Bianca will turn out being a vampire also.. Why you may ask.. It's pretty obvious. Especially in the early conversations she has with her parents and the way that she describes and talks about them in the narration. If she isn't a vampire,she will probably be turned into one at the Autumn Ball..
Impossible by Nancy Werlin
Description: "Lucy has nine months to break an ancient curse in order to save both herself and her unborn daughter.
Inspired by the ballad "Scarborough Fair," this riveting novel combines suspense, fantasy, and romance for an intensely page-turning and masterfully original tale.
Lucy is seventeen when she discovers that the women of her family have been cursed through the generations, forced to attempt three seemingly impossible tasks or to fall into madness upon their child's birth. But Lucy is the first girl who won't be alone as she tackles the list. She has her fiercely protective foster parents and her childhood friend Zach beside her. Do they have love and strength enough to overcome an age-old evil? "
I have been dying to read a "fairy story" and Impossible seems to be the popular answer. It is predictable,but still good.I'm pretty sure I know who the bad guy is and what is going on already..Still though..it is a good read, but no "fairy story" I have ever read yet has beaten my favourite "The Hunter's Moon" by O.R. Melling ~
Air Canada has done me proud with these commercials.They are commercials that you actually want to watch.I have not been so enamoured with a commercial since the musical Gap commercials from the past.Many people have been asking me to find out about the song. It is called "El Vuelo" and t is by Hughes de Courson.
Ok, so now I have seen it four times now and I am still ... What the hell was that ??? There was no closure whatsoever ! Yes, I understand that the whole point of the show was to be a show that shows the lives of these people as they are and reality blah blah blah... It makes me feel like all that time I invested in watching the show was a waste...
And to my brother Christopher,now you can actually learn all of the lines to "Jai Ho" instead of just randomly blurting out a "Jai Ho !" here and there lol...
This show is possibly the best and coolest kids show on ! I even like it ! The music is very catchy (but not in an annoying way) and I even find myself humming along or tapping my foot. They have some really great guests too. Today, they had Ladytron as a musical guest ! And Kaius seems to enjoy it just as much.I was in the kitchen one day last week,and I took him in there to keep an eye on him while I did dishes.I had left the tv on and you could clearly hear it in the kitchen. As soon as Yo Gabba Gabba came on he started going bananas and then he started to fuss.I picked him up,chair and all and put him infront of the tv and he did this little smile and mommy didn't exist anymore.It was all just Yo Gabba Gabba.I think what attracts him are all the bright colours and music.
TOUPIE & BINOU
I don't know what it is with this show,but he likes it. I think its cute.Jay thinks its disturbing lol. Especially after a couple episodes of gender bending.Lol, I think he decided against it when they dressed up as a princess and a fairy and were saying how "beautiful" they looked.LOL. I like it and Kaius likes it when I sing the theme song to him.
I can't believe its over ! In the words of a petualant 2 year old,"I want more !!!!!!". I didn't actually hate the finale.I might come to like it.I wish that there was more ! I think its just bittersweet for me. Now I need to find something else to occupy my Friday nights... Ugghhh... does that mean that I actually have to go out and get a fracking life now ??? *tear* I'm gonna miss that word....
Bummer. I miss it already... Did anyone tear up ? I almost did when Sam (Michael Trucco) was sailing all the ships towards the sun..I always did like Sam.. I will admit,I was a bit peeved at how things were forming and how some things went. I miss D'Anna (Lucy Lawless ...gotta get my Xena fix from somewhere ! lol) and especially Dee (Kandyse McClure). I hated what happened with her character.I think what I did love though,was how they kept a lot of the supporting cast and the little cameos etc. One of my favourite characters has always been Dr Cottle (Donnelly Rhodes). I am glad he was included with a few more scenes than normal.And even Hoshi ! (Brad Dryborough).
So, even though I still haven't really formed my opinion as of yet about what I thought of the Twilight movie,I am sure about what thing. I did really like the music and I thought it fit really well. My favourites are #1,#4,#7 and #14.
So early Wednesday morning I get a call from my doctor's office saying that my tests had came back with bad results and that I needed to go straight to the hospital to be induced either the same day or thursday. Jay and I were soo not prepared.My hospital bag was half packed and nothing was ready. I made a few calls.Jay ran out and did some last minute things like umm getting my camera fixed (appar all it needed was the right sort of batteries) and picking up a few things I would need at the hospital. He didn't get a memory card for my camera though which meant 14 pictures haha..So while he was out doing the shopping I was at home packing my bags and stuff..Cause you know I refused to go into the hospital without first having a shower and shaving my legs lol..So by the time Sarah came and picked us up it was after 2:00pm.
The Assessment:
So we finally make it to the L&D (which we got lost and could not find thank God I wasn't in labour haha),and I realized that I left my health card in the car,which Sarah had to run back and get.We were all so frazzled and worried,none of us were quite on the ball I think.They kept trying to make jokes with me so I wouldn't freak out. My blood pressure tests came back really high and there was a lot of protein in my urine, and the massive swelling in my legs meant that my preeclampsia was not getting any better and they had to do something before it got worst. I was soo hungry and they wouldn't let me eat because they wanted to see if they needed to do and emergency C-section.I was totally against that, so I wanted to make sure that if it was done it was absolutely the last resort.They hooked me up to a moniter that monitered the baby's heartbeat and I had to press this button everytime I felt him move and it would mark it down. There were a good few tests.Holy crap. This brings me to something new. Getting my cervix checked. In retrospect,I think that shit hurt more than labour actually. The nurse had asked me (since its a teaching hospital) did I mind if she checked my cervix too, I said no problem not really knowing what the heck I was getting myself into.She was gentle.The doctor on the other hand tore me up. They said my cervix was still a little high and that it was nowhere near dilated enough (duh,the baby was only 36 weeks and 6 days). I started getting excited thinking that they would be letting me go home. I even made a plan to maybe hit up East Side Mario's for their cheese and artichoke dip on the way home.Fat chance. They admitted me into the L&D ward once a bed was available and Jay and Sarah tucked me in and went home.The plan was that they would start my induction on Thursday.
Blood..and lots of it..
My nurse came and greeted me and like an airline stewardess,she told me the rules and what to do incase of an emergency etc. She was really nice, I liked her a lot. I went to wash my face and stuff before bed, I was about to go pee when I felt trickling down my leg.I checked with my hand and my fingertips came back soaked in blood. This is where I started to freak out. I called my nurse and I started shivering and breathing like I was going to hyperventilate. My first thought was "where is Jay ???". My nurse came as well as like 5 other nurses. They were all very nice and very gentle and they were all checking on me and cleaning it up. The oddness of having someone dress me and put a pad on me and stuff like that was so weird but my mind was racing 50 times a minute to actually process what was going on. I guess they see this stuff everyday so it was nothing to them. All I remember really is that my nurse told them that she would not check my blood pressure now because it would be "through the roof". The doctor came and said that it was from when they checked my cervix that it must have been a "vigorous test" and that I would be fine. They gave me some pills for my blood pressure and told me to go to sleep.
Roommate from hell..
So I know I really shouldn't bitch too much about this. Originally I had asked for a private room, but since there was such a wait for them and since we were told that they were difficult to get,I said screw it, I will just take a ward. I didn't see a point in paying for a semi-private which was like 25 bucks less than the private room.I really really wanted the private room so that Jay could stay with me though so I wouldn't be such a fraidy cat expecting to wake up and find myself in the hospital world in Silent Hill. LOL. I ended up getting a semi-private anyways (hehe and I didn't even have to pay the $225 a night for it). My roommate ended up being this Somalian lady (she said she was Somalian when I introduced myself on the way to the bathroom). She apparentely had been there for many days and didn't want to leave, even though they said that she could and that she was more than fine to go home. She didn't have a baby, from what I understand (from eavesdropping) is that she was 12 weeks pregnant and she had an IV for Hyperemesis ( the same thing I had the first 5 months of my pregnancy) and I guess something else. Her IV would beep everytime it was done or everytime the cords got tangled. And not some quiet beep.Like a loud alarm clock beep.For two days I had to endure hearing that sound as soon as I dozed off.It was like every two hours.There is the call button for you to call your nurse and she never seemed to use it, even though they kept telling her to. She would just let it beep and beep and beep. Everyone was getting annoyed. To get some rest,I had to keep using my call button to call the nurse to come and fix her IV for her. And it was horrible for all the people with the little babies who was on the same side as us. The stupid noise kept waking them all up. I swear it was like the baby in the room beside us would start crying, then the next and the next until it was all the way down the hall.The nurses kept getting annoyed.Especially my nurse who thought that the lady was just being rude. I kept telling her that I just hope I wasn't getting induced the next day because I would be so exhausted. Honestly,I was ready to take a blanket and pillow and sleep in the hallway on the floor somewhere just to get away from the noise. And the best part was everytime I adjusted my bed (which was like twice) and everytime I changed positions, she would kiss her teeth which I was like wtf is her problem, especially cause it paled in comparison to the noise from her and her IV. I was ready to throw both of them out the window by the third hour. LOL so was the lady's husband in the room adjoining to us. To save my sanity and to control the urge I had to just go Hulk and snap,I went and spent the rest of the hours in the kitchen cafeteria reading my book.The whole time she was there she would complain about the food that she couldn't eat it and that they had to get her something different. The poor nurse had to go looking for rice and peas I think it was she said she wanted. The best part was that she would complain about the orange juice and the tomatoes and everything that they made her sick,but she would eat/drink them when the nurse would leave. I remember with my hyperemesis no meant no. I couldn't handle dairy or chicken or pork.It wasn't well..I'm hungry,I guess I'll eat it.It was NOOOOO, get that shit away from me !!!!! I guess its different for everyone. I was rejoicing on Thursday afternoon when I came back and she was gone. Jay had stayed in the hospital with me for a bit and he had a nap and he was even getting annoyed by her and all her noise.
Freaking Starving...
So the rule was basically they didn't know when I was to be induced for sure because the Labour and Delivery Ward was packed and they were waiting for a room to be available to me. The nurse told me that basically it was people like my roommate who was making me wait that long and people who were having things like minor contractions and weren't anywhere near being in labour, but they didn't want to leave. Also, the biggest thing was that they constantly had to run tests on me. If they came back that they were getting worse, they would have to do and emergency c-section and my belly couldn't be full for that apparentely. So I was starving... No wonder the baby was born with low sugar. After two days of them starving me..no wonder.lol.
Ultrasound:
I have no idea why they made me do an ultrasound like an hour before I got induced.Especially when i had one done a few days before and the baby was in birthing position and everything. It's not like he was doing back flips in there. It was nice to get a glimpse of him before though. It was kind of a reminder to me to keep my eyes on the prize no matter how much I felt like flaking out. And no matter how hungry I was..
The Evil Foley Catheter grrr...
So basically right after I had my ultrasound,I had to go straight to the Labour & Deliver assessment area to begin my induction.At this point,there was still not a room for me in the actual L&D area,so I had to go back to the maternity ward. The doctor and nurses were really nice. The doctor sounded like she was either Australian or from New Zealand..Dr Light something..I can't remember,she was nice..and the one nurse resembled Mo Collins from Mad TV. The plan was to use some sort of gel to soften my cervix,so that they can begin the induction and stuff. So they got the gel and strapped me up and got everything ready. It was then that the Dr realized that my "vigorous cervical exam" the day before had actually made me dialate 2 cm ! (I did say it was vigorous and hurt like a beach,didn't I ? ).So the plan for the gel, was scrapped..then came the evil foley catheter.. Appar it brings on your contractions very hard and fast.
They weren't kidding when they said that this shit hurts man !!!!
So I was wheeled back to the maternity ward where I hung out for a bit.I actually had a nap,I think.Then..the foley started to work and I started to feel like I was dying ! That shit hurt man. The contractions started coming on really really badly. Sarah and Jay paged the nurse.She had no idea what the heck should be done because they never appar send people to her ward after starting and induction.But alas,no room.So she had to page someone over from L&D and along came Grace,my angel-nurse, with some pain medication and the idea to have a hot shower. So Sarah & jay helped me over to the shower room (which thankfully was like 1 door away from my room because I was having problems walking.Someone was in there so I sat in the hallway crying in a wheelchair that Sarah made me sit in. Then finally when that guy was done,Sarah and Jay stripped me down and started helping me shower.LOL,but first came the issue of having to figure out how to work the shower lol.Jay had forgotten my conditioner at home,hence why my hair is all frizzy in all the pictures after this point. Then, my nurse came and gave me heating pads, which helped a lot.
Oxytocin...
The best news came when Grace came over again and said that my room in labour and delivery was ready.I was so relieved cause I wanted to go off somewhere by myself and not be going through contractions and stuff infront of everyone in the recovery ward. I wanted some privacy. Jay and Sarah were starving,so they went quick to grab some pizza from the nearby Gino's (that Jay ate while I was in labour...gross). Grace,my angel, took out that stupid foley catheter since I was 3 centimeters dialated.I had to start an IV drip with oxytocin to bring on my labour..I think I actually went up to almost 20 I think.It was insane.They started me off low and they were slowly increasing it. I sat on this exercise ballThen the plan was a whole lot of walking around !! We did two loops around, and then I was just wanting to go lay down.
Bye Bye Water Birth..
I was really wanting to try having a water birth.My plans were pretty much quashed with all the electronic equipment I needed to be hooked up to.I knew going into everything that everything was not going to go as I planned. You imagine that you want to have this earthy, natural,zen kind of experience and sometimes, you just can't.. I just decided to roll with it. This though,was my biggest dissapointment though.I have a feeling if I had been able to have a water birth,I would have not needed the epidural.
Popcicles and Water..Yumm :(
So basically,the doctors basically thought that I was holding on to this pipe dream of actually delivering the baby without having a c-section. They knew so much more than me,so they thought I would end up having a c-section. That meant,no food.Only popcicles and water..yummm.... And of course I was gazing wantonly at Jay and Sarah's pizza...
Vomit,Sweat and Shivers ! Oh my !
As they kept increasing my IV drip,I began to get really really nauseous... I kept throwing up, everywhere and on everything. And the most stupid thing is that they have these little green kidney bean looking containers that you are supposed to puke in.I was like what the heck is this supposed to hold ? gimmme a freaking bucket !!!! Then shortly after that,I began to shiver...and I mean shiver...as if I was in Alaska shiver...It was pretty freaky,but the nurses all said it was normal and a "good sign" that things were progressing.
A moment of calm...time for the Epidural..
I refused to have more popcicles and water,so that pretty much took care of the puking.. I had stopped shivering.. It was then that I had to make an executive decision. I knew i would ahve to get the epidural, that was pretty much predetermined for me (because I have high blood pressure and getting the epidural would lower it).I decided to do it then, while I was calm and not shaking about. I swear, the anesthesiologist that came up looked about my age and after Sarah had said he looked more scared than me. I wish I knew I could ask for a different doctor, but I didn't so he ended up doing my epidural. At first it was ok. The doctor came in and checked my cervix and I had went from 3 centimeters to 7 in a very short time. They broke my water,gave me some Gravol (which made me sleepy) and told me to nap. My doctor then went to perform a c-section on someone else.
Itchy...and in pain..
I don't know how long I slept for, but I woke up with a huge pain in my left side. Apparentely the stupid epidural had only been effective on one side of my body. They gave me an injection of morphine in my IV thingy,which made me taste metal, showing an allergic reaction. Then they told me they could not give me anything.. and all I could use was the little push button that administered more of the epidural medicine...Ah..my little red button.. I was soo itchy ! I kept scratching and scratching. I scratched so hard I left deep marks everywhere (since I could barely feel it) The one thing they don`t tell you about is that the epidural works with gravity. Mine, was going right to my feet. And in between that and the swelling, I could not move my feet at all.
Push that baby out !!!
Finally I was ready to have the baby !! I was pushing like a maniac..They kept telling me not to push until I felt a contraction, but I was like screw that shit..I am hungry and I am doing this now !!!! They brought me this gigantor mirror so that I can see my progress. It made me want to just do it faster. I don`t think I swore or anything..my only shouting demand was to Jay to "push the button !!!" (my pain medication button). Sarah was amazing ! She definitely took point and decided to steer the ship and the nurse took "second in command". I swear it is true.Sarah is really the one who delivered the baby. And the thing I loved the most about her was that she was very encouraging and not patronizing at all.So after two hours of pushing..the little bugger came out. It was so surreal..His head popped out and the nurse started to freak out.She pulled the call buton out of the wall and was screaming that she needed a doctor.. Like 3 of them showed up (the button is not supposed to be used unless there is an emergency because anyone available comes running). They came in just in time to catch him on his way out and to get his cord ready for Jay to cut. Its funny,because you think that you have to completely push the baby out through the whole experience. I stopped pushing after his head came out. The rest was all baby.He was pushing himself out. They kept telling me "don't push !" I was like "its not me, its him !!". So two hours and two stitches later,I was holding my baby boy !
Kaius Augustus Immanuel Umi (海洋) Stephenson
Date of Birth: November 28th 2008 Place : McMaster Children's Hospital Weight: 5 pound 8 ounces
"If you find it in your heart to care for somebody else, you will have succeeded."
~ Maya Angelou
"Throw your dreams into space like a kite, and you do not know what it will bring back, a new life, a new friend, a new love, a new country."
~ Anais Nin
"Freedom is not worth having if it does not include the freedom to make mistakes."
~Mahatma Gandhi
"Come away, O human child!
To the waters and the wild
With a faerie, hand in hand,
For the world's more full of weeping
Than you can understand."
~ W.B. Yeats
*Gomen Nasai *
